November 2009
2 posts
"She was a wise girl till she fell inlove." -Sex...
One would’ve thought I’d be wiser by now, but I’m still a fool.
Back In Town
The boy who changed my life forever is finally back in town. And I’m too scared to meet up with him because instead of saying everything I have to say to him, I might just cry the whole day through.
October 2009
3 posts
I Take My Time, But It Gets Me Nowhere
Did I really expect to see him here? Did I really expect that he and I could work things out? Did I really expect him to reply to my texts?
What am I really doing here in Manila? Yes, visiting my lola, seeing relatives and friends. But at the end of the day, I feel unaccomplished, as if I was expecting someting, and I didn’t get it. I think I need to admit it. I expected to see you.
Maybe...
It Doesn't Go Away
“I loved you. Yes, I did. I loved you very much,” is what I thought after cleaning through old papers and finding a picture of you and me at prom.
Emote.
the next time you’re called a liar, or a feeler, and it isnt true, don’t get mad. remember all the times Jesus was called a liar, yet, he let those people say what they wanted to say, because He knew that He was the right one; He knew that God knew, and that was all that mattered.
September 2009
4 posts
Family is the Strength Behind the Person
Dear Family, Now is when I need you more than ever. I know I may be a pain, with all the sulking and depression, but I can’t do this alone. I can no longer learn on friends, since the ones I thought would be there for me, now aren’t. In a family, you’ll never feel like the oddball out. You can swear on your life that family has got your back, through thick and thin, through...
Fall On Me
“Fall on me, tell me everything you want me to be. Forever it’s you, forever in me, ever the same.” - Ever the Same by Rob Thomas
What happens when you feel like the world has been depleted and there’s no one left to lean on?
I tell many people not to give up and that life is worth living.
I need to listen to my own advice.
Chaotic Serenity
In the middle of the chaos which is clubbing, it’s like the world froze, and I smiled. I smiled seeing my friends who finally took a stand, and fixed up their lives.
Tired of where they were headed, some picked up the call. The call to change.
Life is fun. But fun without responsibility is going to lead you towards a hard path. A hard journey itself, and an even harder journey to...
That's the Whirlwind That Used to Be Us
“You can’t play on broken strings.” * Keeping someone’s hopes up should be a sin. But making those hopes come crashing down deserves 25-years without parole. I just had the most frank, out-there-in-your-face talk I could ever have. “I try to forgive but it’s not enough to make it all okay.” * I’ll try to forget the rude actions, the harsh words...
August 2009
13 posts
Stick To Your Word
It’s a matter of sense. That’s all it is. If they aren’t worth your time, then don’t put effort into trying to be worth THEIR time. There are people out there that say “They aren’t worth my time. Who cares about them.” But then the next time you look, there they are, still talking to those people, still TRYING to be their friend. I hate people like that....
There Will Always Be Right Places at Right Times
Yes, it was a story worthy for a fairytale. You meeting me at the debut, you bringing me to the car, searching far and wide for my number. Yah, we were cute. But for some reason, you didn’t fight for me. You let me walk away as easily as water trickling through your fingers. You didn’t step your game up, while HE did, and of course, Who was I supposed to choose? You didn’t make a...
I Never Thought It Would Be Love
Yes, you were sweet. But who knew you were serious. It started out as nothing; as “Hey, I’m *****”. Then the next year, we were making jokes, calling each other, and making each other laugh everyday. Who knew you’d actually feel anything. Who knew you’d make me feel those butterflies inside. The butterflies which I told no one about. No one knew, because I...
Us.
Waking up in this city is already torture enough, because it reminds me what I gave up for you. It reminds me of the choice I made two years ago. I chose to stay here for college because you asked me not to leave you. Look where we are now. </3 I stayed here, away from my family, from my childhood friends, away from everything I knew… BECAUSE THAT’S HOW MUCH I LOVE YOU. ...
Why Don't You Tell Me That It's Over
Just because I feel left out. This note will make no sense. I don’t even know where to begin. I’m surrounded by tons of people, yet I feel left out. I don’t know. I miss my highschool friends. I miss how they never made ANYONE feel left out in the group. We all loved each other equally and honestly. I miss you girls. I miss the feeling of being happy with no problems...
Silence is Strength.
“SILENCE IS STRENGTH”- My mom. This will stay with me forever. It’s been a while, the battle has been tough, but this battle we call life, is like this for a reason; to learn… learn the hard way. I have learned the hard way who my friends are, who are worth adjusting for, who are worth fighting for, and then I learned which people are worth dirt. I saw unity, by looking...
When we're together, there's no tomorrow.
Who texts late at night just to make sure you’re okay? Who texts even right after you get out of the car to remind you to stop crying because he’s not worth your tears? Who remembers important dates in your life even though the event has nothing to do with them? Who comes over and spends the whole day with you when you’re going through a breakup? Who comes to you right away...
A Page from My Notebook.
So here’s a rant that I wrote in my notebook while in class. I’m writing it here just as it appears on the paper. No corrections, no adjustments. My t-square is my boyfriend. I live to succeed. I refuse to fail. “A social life means you’re gonna get upset and it’s gonna give you problems.” -Dad It’s good to have friends, but don’t make them your...
Reminisce.
“Remember when you held my hand like you’d never let it go? Remember when we talked of where we’d be a year from now? Remember, because that’s all you can do.”
Sometimes, we busy ourselves with projects, with designs, with useless matters, just to keep our mind off of the person we miss and love the most. But then at the end of the day, when the busy day starts...
The People That Matter.
You guys keep my hopes up; You guys live it to the fullest. We pick up right where we ended, as if no time has passed. You are the ones that matter in my life. None of those other people who make life difficult, none of those drama shits. You are my support. I can be myself around you guys; no masks, no different attitudes, no stupid “I’m gonna try to be nice just so everyone...
